I’m tired today. Not just the kind of tired where you want to go to bed early, or take a nap, or need an extra cup of coffee.
It’s the kind of tired that makes you just want to to quit. Not forever, just today.
But as much as I want to, there’s something else driving me to write this post.
It’s my commitment to do it.
I really don’t want to. Not gonna lie. I don’t “feel” it. But that nagging little voice inside me is saying “but you said you would”. And I hate that stupid voice (as right as it may be).
Honestly, I don’t know if I’d be letting anyone down. I don’t know if anyone would notice that I didn’t post today. I have a good number of you readers, but I haven’t gotten to that point where enough people care enough if this is ever published. I guess I just don’t feel like if I miss a day, anyone will ever email me to ask “ Hey, it’s Tuesday. Why didn’t you post today?”
It’s not like I need that, but knowing that’s a possibility makes it a lot easier to say to myself “it’s ok. Just take one day off”.
I’m not giving in though. As much as I want to, I’m banging out these lonely feeling words to an audience that may or may not ever read them. Because in the end, I’m not writing them consistently for you. I’m doing it for me, because I committed myself to do it.
And that’s just the way it goes sometimes. It’s all those quiet hours of chipping away when we really set the stage for future success. Championships are won when no one’s looking.
So while I don’t have a lot to say, and really nothing prolific, I will say this. If you’re struggling to make a difference, or if you’ve set a goal over and over only to fail again and again, set the commitment to yourself to see it through. No matter what, don’t give yourself an inch to fail.
Because in the end, we don’t do it for the glory. We do it for the pride that we did it. And as they say, pain is temporary, pride is forever.
What have you wanted to quit on, but didn’t let yourself? Or have you quit something before that you wish you hadn’t?